The Unwritten Scribbles and Scraps

June 1, 2012

First program tomorrow

wahhhhh. so nervous, yet completely looking forward to it.

it’s my first program, and i get to be the welcoming face to eight brand new frosh English majors at Cal, class of 2016. so humbled that i actually get this opportunity. i mean, how many people can say that they got to do this?

i just hope i can offer them all and give them all that Cal has given me thus far.

if anything, i hope i can give them even more. and at the same time, i hope i don’t get too clingy/connected to them, cause’ after all, they’re only here for two days.

and then it’s all over.

and then i get to welcome another whole set of students a day after that, and for the next two months.

so humbled. goodnight

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May 27, 2012 954 notes

comrade-t:

fucking srsly everyone, take this into account

May 25, 2012

sadly, this isn’t what I expected it was going to be like. it’s actually super discouraging, and super frustrating, and if anything, it’s just reminding me just how much i have to focus on what my initial intentions and motivations were when coming into this program.

it’s for the counselees. 150%. and specifically, the transfer students. and that’s it.

and if i end up with a few close friends with the other counselors in the process, then that’s great. but if not, (and mostly not), then that’s fine too.

all i know is i’m fucking exhausted and emotionally drained, and to be honest, i’m a bit over trying to convince myself that i can connect with this staff.

i guess i’m just leaving it to connecting with these counselees, and at the end of the day, that’s all i really wanted with this position in the first place. it just sucks to have to realize that it’s coming to this.

May 12, 2012 1 note

Exactly one year from today,

I’ll be graduating from UC Berkeley. so crazy!!!

May 10, 2012 3 notes

Done with junior year. One year left of my undergrad career.

Honestly, I’m kind of glad it’s over. I’m glad my transition year is done. Everyone said it would be hard—but no one prepared me for what I’ve been through this past year.

And really, I’m just gonna leave it at that. I’m proud of myself for making it this far, but I still have a long way to go till I get to where I want to be. And that’s fine. I’m okay with that now. ‘Cause no matter what happens from here on out, I know I’m headed in the right direction.

Looking forward to going home tomorrow and spending time with my family and friends for a good week. And then looking forward to what I’m sure will be one of the best and most meaningful summers of my life up here in Berkez. I’ll finally get to enjoy the bay area on my own terms (when I have time).

And I’m defintely not going to be studying for a single second of it.

Goodnight everyone! (And good luck to those still cramming for finals. Be safe everyone. I love you all.)

May 6, 2012